it happens again

i finally really like someone...

he able to make me smile when i with him.

he got something that make me fall into him.

my day will be delightful if he at least message me.. at least a message.

everyday, i'll view his profile in FB.. just to see his face.

and i always hope his blog is update just to know he is alright.

but...

i know, again i fall in love with a wrong person. i don't know why.. but i just don't want this feeling to fade away. it hurts.

it's not my classmate people. sebab prinsip saya mengatakan bahawa saya takkan bercinta dengan classmate saya.but he's somewhere here. somewhere in unimap.

kalaulah anda tahu apa yang saya rasa sekarang... "i think i'm in love"

it's a happy + bad day

ianya sungguh tidak dirancang. and i never thought of going to padang besar this nearest time... but i am so bored so... we when there by

rented a car
mula2 kami call dr taman semarak punya kereta sewa.. aunty tu ckp da abes. then i call wang ulu, tak angkat pulak. so then i call farid (thanks to skype) mintak dia crkan no tel kereta sewa pengkalan asam. and at last, we got it. i decided to ask farid to join us.. me and fyqa.. but then dia cakap, buat apa dia nak pergi? takde aah tujuan. but pujuk n pujuk n pujuk, dia pun kata mau pergi. yes.. but then, me n fyqa pergi amik kereta dulu, balik wang ulu amik farid. from wang ulu, dia bawak.. attention people.. my license is still P tau... and after test, i bawak kereta auto.. no manual.. so agak macam haram sket larr mau bawak itu kereta manual..

sesat jalan
i ask farid bawak kereta and lalu highway.. even i tunjuk jalan pun, memang bantai sesat je laa... n kereta sewa itu sangat lah teruknye. huhuhu.. and at last we all arrived padang besar sejam setengah dr waktu asal.

shopping
ianya mengambil masa yang sangat lama untuk pilih baju, but Farid yang kata tiada arah tujuan tu telah selesai membeli baju beliau.. n me n fyqa? biasalah wanita..memilh sangat. but still my cloth memang tak menarik pun. i'm a big size kan? susah mau cr baju. huhuh.. then, fyqa beli few food for her parent. while me, i already bought few for my parent and my brother.. gosh..my brother nye bj 40 ringgit kot.. mine is 55..

i drive
here begin the funny and the scary part. i ask farid to allow me to drive waktu balik dr padang besar. i want to. because, i'm afraid that i'll be forgetting how to drive manual car. so, farid allowed me to do so.. and he sit next to me. and luckily he's there. kesian sangat kat dia.. he said,he wants to sleep while i drive.. unfortunately i'm damn worst macam noob trus bawak manual.. so, dialah ajar saya balik.. tak tido lah kawan tu... and kami singgah timah tasoh sat. amik gambar, then balik... at that time suda pukul 6.30

main handbrake
farid sangat takut saya tak ley control brake. so dia decide control handbrake. kejap2 ada je lampu merah kat board tuh.. dia rupanye main tarik handbrake.heheh.. and i'm still terrified with tempat sesak... so i decided ikut jalan kampung...

berbuka di kuala perlis
damn hell banyak nye kereta!!!! cuak dah time tu... but dikuatkan diri..bawak jugak. n kami memang da decide mau makan apa time pergi tu. so... waktu nak order tak de lah lama sangat mau pk makan apa... makan sangat kenyang... and total up suma RM74. tapi makan sangat puas... siakap 3 rasa, sotong goreng tepung, kailan ikan masin and telur goreng.. owh.. kenyang

secret recipe
we went to secret recipe. belikan untuk hani.. dia kirim kek.farid suda terlampau penat.. so it's me again who drive.. gatalkan? masuk dekat ngan kangar. then waktu kami mau balik pulangkan kereta, something happened

trafik light Pengkalan Asam
everything was fine. my night session punya driving is much better than the evening. sampai di trafik light, ianya suda kuning.. so i decided to stop. bila dia kembali hijau, i pun nak jalan but suddenly, enjin mati! n at that time i'm not panicked at all. macam biasa start engine and jalan without realizing that the trafic light is already red. and i 'm in the middle of the road dengan kereta belah kanan i suda ready to go.. and atually they're going. that time baru lah menggelabah. but, i just do what i think is right... i just drive straight.. thanks to all drivers yang baik hati berhenti and all the horns i accept dengan rasa rendah diri n bersalah...

balik wang ulu
i think myself is dull. the thing i've done just now..it' my mistakes. i should

• recheck if the light is still green
• i have to learn back manual car
• n i should accept the fact i hate manual car n i'm better in auto.

to both Farid and Fyqa.. sorry sangat2... to Farid especially.. da lah aku force ko kan? sian ko sog2 tak de kawan.. jahat gila aku nih.... huk3... n tetiba aku rasa trauma bawak manual... aku mau bawak kereta auto larrr...huuuu~~~

huhuhu.. i think it has been a very long time i didn't update my blog. first because the internet connection in unimap fails me and 2nd i'm real damn busy. not only with competition, but also with a lot of assignment..

what's new? not much... latest, we, the unimap nasyid group represented perlis for the Nasyid Belia Peringkat Kebangsaan. And we got third place.. ahahha... congratulation to us. it is so funny to remember that i forget the lyrics. luckily i know how to cover it.. don't know why. maybe because i'm too nervous up there.. ngee~

once again thanks to Kak Ita n En Gee for the clothes... pity them have to walk at noon to search for our clothes. Thanks to En Wan for the voices techniques and En Mi for the transportation. who else..hurm..owh ya, thanks to all nasyid members for the commitment and group works... love you all so much

hurm.. but something happened there.. ada je yang tak puas hati ngan kami dr perlis nih... listen. even we're a student skalipun, kami kat perlis.. so, tak salah kalo kami join group belia perlis. bukannya kami jemput org dar mana2 utk masuk wakil perlis.. weirdo~

n i don't give a damn to those people yang busuk hati tu... i don't care win or lose. winning is an advantages. lose is an experienced. kalo suma menang, maka tak tamat lagi lah perang dunia kedua tu...

what-so-ever, we're so having fun kat pelis. even malam habis event tu, suma boys pakat tinggalkan kami, but kami havin fun kat pantai batu burok and A&W.. huhuhu((bila lah perlis nak ada selain dr KFC n Pizza nih))

i wish to share a few pic... from dondang sayang ari tu till nasyid.. so here it goes

me on stage with my partner.. hee~

masuk paper lah pulak.. segan aku.. hee~

the nasyid ladies

the nasyid gentlemen

we on stage after performance

~~~~float~~~

gambar last tu tak de kena mengena k... saje nak ckp kiteorg gi a&w..hehheeh...

rasa macam nak masukkan satu pic as my profile pic blogger. but..tgklah kalo internet wang ulu izinkan.. pape pun, Allah juga yang maha berkuasa...

change my blog name

yes you don't know me, so please shut up whenever you try to talk like you really know me.

i said this because i myself didn't know the real me, so how could you?

~ weirdo ~

update for dondang sayang makum

almost a week i came back from the competition,sorry go no time to update my blog. so damn tired, with a lot of quizzes.

so the story begin. that night, latihan koir, then ada audition for dondang sayang and lagu patriotik. i want to go for dondang sayang. memang dah fix. tak mo ubah. ntah tak tahu la nape.. maybe because i think that i'm good in dondang sayang, or dondang sayang is already in my blood. eheh

dipendekkan cerita, dapat la wakil unimap dondang sayang dgn olie, 4th year ppk alam sekitar. but wakil unimap, bukan lah satu benda mudah. with en wan yang asyik ckp " kalo pergi bertanding dondang sayang mesti awak menang" suda meletakkan hope yang sangat tinggi for me. nak tak nak mesti menang.

journey from perlis to mallacca i keep saying to my self," target utk masuk final je dulu, da dapat final, br nak pikir tempat...

sampai je melaka, pergi utem, ada opening... pengenalan kepada dondang sayang. tak larat dah..dengar je lah. then masa introduction tu, pengarah program perkenalkan penyanyi dr utem tu as "penyanyi ghazal kami"... duh..that time cm da cuak dah... ye lah, tuan rumah kan... mesti la bajet macam bagus je...

tak larat nak dengar ceramah, so kami keluar, then our LO ckp boley la kalo nak balik KBS. masa kat KBS tu, i try to confident myself back. for me tak pe kalokalah, but i want to win. semua org ada kelebihan masing2, n i strongly believe kelebihan saya pada dondang sayang. so, i want to win. no matter what

malam tu, terus start bengkel.. pak bahrim still recognize me... he said, "rupa berubah, but badan still tak berubah" hahahah. ok ok larr that time

by the second day, my voice spoils. asyik pecah je.. pegawai dari UTM ckp, maybe sebab aircond, suara suma tak keluar... sejuk sangat. i guess so, because everytime i sing outside the room sampai pulak. adoiii...

and kami sangat rapat ngan student UPSI.. Kak Atie n Abe. asal malam je mesti kami hilang.. sampai pukul 3 pagi.. berborak, karaoke, McD... hehehe...

by the next day, i feel my throat macam dah kesat.. risa gila time tu.. i'm so avoiding tido sebab takut suara berubah. naseb baik sampai malam tu, i still elok lgi suara..

the first two contestant performing, aku kat belakang stage last minute practice. so bila sampai my time, gemuruh tu ilang dah.. tak de lagicuak or what so ever.

Alhamdulillah, Unimap akhirnya ditabalkan sebagai "Johan Dondang Sayang Makum 2010" heheheh

ada kemusykilan sedikit... unimap ada penyokong??? mase kiteorg naik stage tu ada org sorak dah... cm pelik je... da la bertanding kat tempat org.. pape pun TQ lah bg sokongan... even all contestant pun... i feel it..

rindu arr kat korang suma, kak Atie, Erra, Husna, Baby, Ana, pia...huhu... to all boys, saya rindu kamu semua juga..:) lain masa ketemu lagi ye...:)

luv from us, Unimap...:)

saya rasa

i think i like someone...

but...

just wait and see..

this feeling will just fade away later..

difference between pro singer and pro violinist

pro singer : sometimes, when performing live,there will be a mistakes. voice out of pitch,"splinching" bla bla bla

popular violinist : they rarely make mistakes... still there, but very rare.

right now is watching BOND, damn sexy, but don't look how they appear, i just look at their talent...

wish i could play like them...