tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-86494704142640761142024-03-06T00:49:07.790+08:00...you know me not...blog kanak2 ke? mungkin juga... tapi inilah dr hati dan apa yang berlaku...huhuIrsyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08171547248650859820noreply@blogger.comBlogger228125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8649470414264076114.post-29552014282695783632014-10-03T09:05:00.000+08:002014-10-03T09:05:16.340+08:00Diet!!!!*gelak jap* berkurun lama cakap nak diet nak diet. tak diet2 jugak.<br />
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tp, kali ni serious. puncanya? cik kawan post gambar dia kat whatsapp, cakap dia dah bley muat blazer dia masa form 5. me was like woaaahhhhh.. ok. let's try this diet.<br />
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Atkins. pernah dengar? tak pernah sila google lain. secara am nye ialah, low carb, high protein diet. so makan lah banyak mana pun, but low than 20 g of carb. well this is for induction.<br />
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so last week, before aku gi perlis, aku abruptly start. for a week, tak amik nasi, gula etc. malangnya hari ke dua aku diet, aku terus demam. but still, aku continue gak.<br />
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tapi aku ada ragu2 gak ngan diet ni. ye lah amik ayam, telur, deaging, ikan. sumber protein yang ada kolestrol and lemak. aku cam risau gak effect kat tempat lain. tapi aku tny kekawan aku, seorang tgh study medic. dia kata insyaAllah x ada effect apa kalau kita follow 4 step tu. so, aku pun dengan yakin tak yakin nye continue.<br />
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tapikan, still ada musykil gak. so, masa ak gi jumpa doktor tu, aku mintak doktor tu buatkan appointment ngan dietrician. so 14/10 insyaAllah aku gi jumpa doktor tanya should aku continue diet ni.<br />
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anyway. masa 1 minggu aku try dieat ni, berat aku turun dari 100kg ke 94.5kg. *tepuk sikit*. then bila aku gi perlis, aku pakat cheat habis, air minum air manis, makan tak pantang, berat aku naik balik 98.5 kg. amik ko. -.-"<br />
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so skang ni start balik. Alhamdulillah, turun gak la semalam aku timbang. turun sekilo pun happy nye ya Allah!!<br />
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menu diet aku simple. tapi aku tak amik telur hari2. aku ganti ngan tauhu putih. aku cari dlm tenet, bacaannya dalam 1.21g carb je sebiji. tapi aku siyes tak suka tauhu. so aku tak amik sebiji. amik setengah. hahah.<br />
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nak post menu. tapi aku siyes malas. tengoklah kalo 1st week aku berjaya, nnt aku post menu aku everyday eh.<br />
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toodles~Irsyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08171547248650859820noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8649470414264076114.post-55772619010964814682014-09-09T16:31:00.002+08:002014-09-09T16:31:45.422+08:00IT HAS BEEN A LONGGGGGGGGGG TIME!!!!!! well....<br />
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*speechless*<br />
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so when was the last time i update this? a year ago?? ok * blow away the dust*<br />
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anyway, nothing change.. not really. bad news? everywhere? good news? think positive, it'll be in your way.<br />
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so i still haven't get any permanent job. what i have now is a contract position with no particular position with a government bodies. nevermind that. as long as i can earn my own money and it's from a good source, why not?<br />
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anyway, i'm still an Arashi fan. make that to 3 years already, and i just discover the beautiful/cute ladies/girl group, AKB48 and i listen quite a lot to them lately... sorry that i became childish XD<br />
not that sorry though. happiness is everywhere. right?<br />
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i still have way too many to achieve. so who ever in my way, please go away. don't need you. and seriously, shut up!<br />
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i'm not sure what i'm going to do with this blog anymore, but... maybe it'll full with rant later. lol.<br />
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I'm back!!! *to whom am i saying this? -.-""""*Irsyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08171547248650859820noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8649470414264076114.post-15773482898389739282013-07-16T13:22:00.001+08:002013-07-16T13:22:32.227+08:00updating???fuiyoooo.. saya update blog... nampak na tade kerja kan? last time i update this blog was october 2012... almost a year... huhu<br />
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maa... nothing change. eh wait, somethings did change. but i'm still an Arashi fan (bila nak stop ni hoi), but now i'm almost an UniMAP alumni. currently searching for job.. (ahh... 1 down. =( ). hopefully gonna get one soon.<br />
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insyaAllah.. do pray for me, people.<br />
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between, in a few days, another change gonna happen.... what what? later i update eh? for now... papaiIrsyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08171547248650859820noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8649470414264076114.post-56965952308031763722012-10-17T01:15:00.000+08:002012-10-17T01:15:05.645+08:004th year, me and the no lifefirst of all... start writing this at 12.39 am... it's midnight people and i'm supposed to sleep right now, however due to some circumtances (light fever + headache *feels uncomfortable* and writing proposal), here i am, writing a post.<br />
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o-hisashiburi ne, blogger!!! sorry la, i takde bibik nak kemas sawang2 yang menapak dlm blog nih XD<br />
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owh well, i wanna write about my <strike>life</strike> as 4th year student.. *stroke that life, because no more life*... however, things must go on right.. kalo tak progress, maka tak habis lah benda yang kita buat tu.. huhu<br />
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oh, well, my FYP title has something related to silver nanoparticle. i won't explain here because i've been explaining to some of my classmates about it, and none of them really understand of what i said.. can't blame them. even my FYP coordinator herself didn't understand when i show my problem statement.. eh bukan.. she said "saya sebenarnya tak faham apa tajuk awak nih" hahahahh... the only one yang faham is my very own FYP supervisor... *kalo dia tak faham, masalah la wey* so, discuss ngan dia je laa~~<br />
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i'm glad that i have my SV as my SV... well, from my observation he's a kind of 'you do what you're happy to do'. no specific 'you have to do this'. he just tell us what he want as outcome, and we come out with what we want to do. kalo susah dr apa yg dia cadangkan, buat ikut yang kami mudah.<br />
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and he easily consult to. just kena tahu betul2 jadual dia la... kekadang jadual kami yang tak kena ngan dia.<br />
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so, kami bertiga (me doing silver nano, another member do bambara beans ferment?, and another one do on glucose sensor), how should i said this, quite ok la... my SV comment that bambara beans is the easiest, while that biosensor is complicated one.. so i'm in the middle. lol.. in the middle pun, you didn't know how i end up read six journal, but didn't get the info i want.. ORZ<br />
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so, the other classmates, most of them more on field work i guess. kena buat irrigation system for the plant. some do modelling, and ada yang thesis-like (observation). ada yang dapat SV yang ok, yang every week wajib jumpa, or specific date perjumpaan. or even worst survive sendiri sebab lecturer yang jadi SV tu busy sangat.. email jadi pengantara.. itu pun kalo sempat bukak. siap ada yang lecturer discuss ngan dorang sambil berjalan sebab busy sangat.<br />
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macam2 hal. macam2 ragam. there's one week that we have too many assignment, that i don't even have time for myself. and i end up skip on few classes. -.-" *gomen prof*<br />
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this post is actually dedicated to all my classmates. i can't denied that i myself experiencing a serious anxiousness right now. but, my way of relieving it is to talk and music. tapi tak semua orang sama cara nak calm down. ada yang kalo dengar music lagi serabut, ada yang tak leh dengar langsung bunyi pin jatuh atas lantai pun. so, carilah cara yang boleh bantu kita calm down a little bit. sebab kalo risau sambil buat kerja, for me, akan jadi tak fokus.<br />
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so friends, walaupun kita jarang2 cakap, jarang2 hang out/ buat aktiviti bersama2, saya doakan agar kita semua, Biosystems Engineering 2nd Batch Unimap akan berjaya mengharungi setahun yang mendatang ni. berjaya pakai jubah biru sama2 oktober tahun depan and sebelum tu setiap FYP yang kita jalankan berjaya.<br />
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before i end up, nak petik satu kata2 dr one of the member of my favourite band ever, Arashi *sorry bias*<br />
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<b><span style="color: lime; font-size: x-large;">"rather than smiling because of something, smile because of thinking something might come out good if you smile"</span></b></h2>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="color: orange;">t/n: daripada senyum disebabkan sesuatu, senyumlah sebab anda fikir sesuatu yang baik akan berlaku jika anda berbuat demikian.</span></span></span><blockquote>
<span style="color: lime;"><b> - Aiba Masaki</b></span></blockquote>
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till then. good luck.. gambarimasho!<br />
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<br />Irsyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08171547248650859820noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8649470414264076114.post-35902127753694627352012-09-02T10:29:00.001+08:002012-09-02T10:29:16.177+08:00Youyou happened to be my past.<br />
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thinking of you scares me.<br />
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can't imagine my life with you when you already give the biggest hurt in my life.<br />
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just so you know, i pray that you'll never met or get any nearer to me<br />
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not anymore.Irsyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08171547248650859820noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8649470414264076114.post-52548893441786411922012-08-31T12:23:00.000+08:002012-08-31T12:23:54.609+08:00Si Mata Biru Di Bumi Malaysiasempena hari kemerdekaan malaysia hari ni, i've decide to make a short story for it. awkward.. i admit... but... just for this special ocassion... terimalah<br />
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<div class="MsoNormal">
Mata biru itu memandang kejauhan. Dia keseorangan. Bukan
kerana dia tidak mahu berkawan, tetapi mereka menyisihkannya. Dari yang kecil
hinggalah yang menjadi bapa budak, setiap mata yang memandang ke arahnya, pasti
terdapat perasaan jelik dan benci.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Dia masih kecil, tidak mengerti mengapa setiap kali dia
ingin memulakan persahabatan, tiada tangan yang menyambut salamnya itu. Dia
tidak tahu kenapa kewujudannya seolah-olah tidak kelihatan walaupun dia
dikelilingi insan-insan yang seharusnya tidak mengasingkan anak kecil yang
masih bersih dari segala dosa. Bukankah doa orang yang tidak berdosa diterima
tuhan?</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
“ibu, kenapa mereka tak suka, Amri?” soalan itu acap kali
disuarakan kepada ibu yang tercinta. Acap kali juga, si ibu tersenyum sehingga
membuang segala tanda tanya yang berlegar dalam diri.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Namun semakin dia membesar, dia semakin faham. Bukan kerana
apa-apa dia dibenci. Tetapi kerana keturunannya.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Bapanya, seorang pegawai British yang berkahwin dengan
ibunya. Atas dasar cinta kata ibunya. </div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Tetapi, dia tidak percaya. Andai benar atas dasar cinta,
mengapa ibunya ditinggalkan pada waktu Jepun menyerang Tanah Melayu? Dan
mengapa dia tidak kembali saat Tanah Melayu kembali jatuh ke tangan Inggeris
yang tamak haloba mengaut hasil-hasil bumi di tanah yang bukan tanah mereka?</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Si Ibu di tinggalkan keseorangan membawa 2 nyawa di dalam
diri saat si kejam memerintah. Dan tahun 1943, ketika pertama kali dia
menghirup udara di rumah bidan tua itu, si ayah tidak bersama mengazankan bayi
suci itu.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Tidak pernah sekali dia melihat wajah si tua penipu itu. </div>
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<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
“beritahu saya cita-cita awak, Amri?” ditanya seorang guru
ketika menjejakkan kaki di alam persekolahan. Ah. Budak berusia 8 tahun, apa
sangatlah yang dia tahu mengenai cita-cita.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
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Namun dengan penuh megah, dia menjawab.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
“saya mahu jadi askar, cikgu!” namun tanpa dia duga,
jawapannya hanya mengudang senyuman sinis dari rakan-rakan sekelasnya. Ditambah
pula, si guru bersama turut serta dalam kesinisan tersebut.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
“Askar? Anak penjajah seperti kamu mahu jadi askar?
Untung-untung kembali jugalah Tanah Melayu ke tangan Inggeris,”</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Dan kata-kata itu berlegar mengisi ruang mindanya.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Apakah salah menjadi anak penjajah? Iya. Mungkin salah.
Mungkin mereka takut darah penjajah itu mengalir dalam darahku. Mungkin mereka
takut aku mengikut jejak langkah bapa ku mengambil pusaka-pusaka bersejarah
nenek moyang mereka di tanah bertuah ini. Heh, mereka salah. Bukan semua kuah
harus tumpah ke nasi.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Kata-kata mereka sememangnya berlegar dalam kepala otaknya.
Namun, tidak sekali mematahkan semangatnya untuk bergelar seorang askar. Soalan
yang sama diulang ketika dia berusia 10 tahun, 12 tahun, 13 tahun dan 15 tahun.
Dan setiap kali dia menjawab soalan itu, setiap kali itulah jawapan yang dia terima
sinis semata dari rakan-rakan dan juga gurunya. Meskipun guru yang lain.
Bukankah seorang guru itu tugasnya membantu dalam membangunkan anak muridnya?
Mengapa terpesong pula tugasnya apabila dia?</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
1957 Tanah Melayu mencapai kemerdekaan. 14 tahun dia hidup,
namun mentaliti mereka tidak pernah berubah. Dia anak penjajah dan gelaran it
terus bersama membayangi kehidupan sehariannya.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Dan semakin dia dewasa, semakin dia matang menangkis segala
kata-kata insan-insan yang paranoid dengan pemerintahan kuasa-kuasa asing. Dan
semakin dia dewasa juga, semakin kuat keinginannya untuk bergelar askar,
membela tanah airnya.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Ya, tanah airnya. Tanah tumpahnya darahnya. Tanah dimana
tempat dilahirkan. Terserahlah apa juga kata-kata mereka. Biarkan mereka terus
dengan kata-kata sinis mereka. Ya, dia anak penjajah, namun dia juga anak bumi
ini.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Dan pandangannya
terhadap seorang guru berubah apabila dia berusia 17 tahun dan sekali lagi
soalan itu ditanyakan.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Ahmad, beritahu kepada rakan-rakan kamu mengenai cita-cita
kamu,” wajah guru tua penuh keikhlasan. Senyumannya menampakkan baris giginya
yang tidak teratur.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Dia berdiri, tegak dan tegas, lantang menyuarakan
cita-citanya.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
“cita-cita saya tidak pernah berubah, cikgu. Saya mahu jadi
askar, dan itulah yang akan saya capaikan,” ujarnya. Dan seperti yang dijangka,
rakan-rakannya memandang sinis, malah ada yang ketawa. Tetapi jangkaannya salah
terhadap guru tua itu. </div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
“mengapa ketawa?” soalannya mematahkan gelak tawa
rakan-rakan sekelasnya. </div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
“mengapa memandang serong akan cita-cita seseorang?”</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
“tapi dia anak penjajah, cikgu,” seorang membalas kata-kata
guru tua itu.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
“lebih mulia dirinya dari diri seorang anak watan yang
bongkak dan haloba,” sungguh cekap sekali guru tua itu bersuara. Dia hanya
memerhatikan guru tua itu memberikan kata-kata semangat kepada rakan-rakan yang
tidak pernah menganggap dirinya sebagai seorang sahabat.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
“teruskan cita-cita kamu, Amri. Biarlah apa jua orang kata. Teruskan
cita-cita murni kamu. Saya akan menyokong kamu,” </div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Dan kata-kata itulah yang menyokongnya untuk berjaya berdiri
di sini hari ini. Di platform ini, dia berdiri menerima anugerah Darjah
Kebesaran Negara, atas segala pengorbanan dan perkhidmatannya selama ini. </div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Dia kini bukan sekadar si mata biru. Dia ialah si mata biru
yang merupakan antara pegawai tertinggi dalam Angkatan Tentera Malaysia.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
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<div class="MsoNormal">
“Aku anak Malaysia,” hati kecilnya berbisik.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
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<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
that's all :)</div>
Irsyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08171547248650859820noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8649470414264076114.post-66009265535649542152012-04-28T15:21:00.000+08:002012-04-28T15:21:29.809+08:00FRIENDSthere's one time that i've said something and someone get mad because of what i said. <br />
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i said "i don't really have friends," and they replied "so, we're not your friends?".. and then i fell silent.<br />
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up to what point should we consider that someone is your friend? well this is my idea.<br />
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friend is just somebody who is close to you, understand you and won't betray you.<br />
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and because i didn't believe people anymore, there's no such word in my life. there might be some of the people that i know understand me, never betray my trust, and close to me.. that i didn't consider as friend. that is bestfriend. bestfriend knows everything, understand you, care about you. there's such people ever exist in my life. that's the reason why i said "i don't really have friend"<br />
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this year, another definition of friend that i learn. friend is someone near to you, take advantage on what you have, betray your trust. i learn that this year. and from that time, i always consider what are you to me? everyone. every single person.<br />
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i'm not a good friend. i know. but why should i be one to someone who's not a good friend to me. up to the point that you betray my trust with the word 'help', i don't think that it's worth to have you as friend.<br />
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one more point, friend won't leave their friend when they have another friend. -reflect-<br />
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ps:// emotional rant. sorry.<br />
ps://ps:// i wonder why. but i just won't pointing hand. please point your hand on me. then i'll start talking.<br />
ps://ps://ps:// i'm a volcano.. for those who didn't understand that word, i just won't get mad at the moment. i'll keep it untill one time, i'll explode<br />
ps://ps://ps://ps://for the last2 post, the friend word, it's just a word.<br />
<br />Irsyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08171547248650859820noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8649470414264076114.post-17174039008582180422012-04-27T10:51:00.002+08:002012-04-27T10:51:34.159+08:00you may not know it.. but<div style="text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">THIS IS WHERE I CHANGE</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-small;">ps:// i rant a lot here before, and that'll never change.</span><br />
<span style="font-size: x-small;">ps://ps:// it's much better for me to be sincere with my thought since a lot of people tend to make shit on me. </span><br />
<span style="font-size: x-small;">ps://ps://ps:// i'm still an Arashi fan, not because i wanna be jelly jelly with them, but because they are my major source of happiness. so OF YOU GO if you can't handle the fangirl side of mine..</span><span style="font-size: xx-small;">(esp kpop lover)</span><br />
<span style="font-size: x-small;">ps://ps://ps:// serious side of mine. F*** off if you try to make fun of it. i'm 22 this year, and i already feel the burden i'm going to hold this coming years</span><br />Irsyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08171547248650859820noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8649470414264076114.post-57507899779733593782012-02-01T10:37:00.002+08:002012-02-01T10:41:12.372+08:00menjenguk blogahahah.. dah lama tak update kan??? well, malas nak menaip.. ok, itu tipu.<div><br /></div><div>nothing special actually happened in my life. so, tak de menda nak update. </div><div><br /></div><div>tapi satu menda yang sure. bila balik umah, punya la takde menda nak update, bila dah balik U, suma menda nak tulis.. erk???</div><div><br /></div><div>that's all people.. bye2.. kalo ada masa nnt saya tulis pasal gi medan ye :)</div>Irsyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08171547248650859820noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8649470414264076114.post-24170612657707252172011-11-18T13:33:00.001+08:002011-11-18T14:00:17.125+08:00cerita akumasa aku kecik2 dulu, <div>aku hope aku cepat besar,<div>sebab orang besar banyak duit.</div><div>boleh beli sticker banyak2,</div><div>nak lekat kat pensil box,</div><div>nampak cantik and meriah je.</div><div><br /></div><div>masa aku kecik2 dulu, </div><div><div>aku hope aku cepat besar,</div></div><div>sebab orang besar boley beli macam2.</div><div>masa tu aku nak sangat buku warna2.</div><div>yang gambar barbie tu.</div><div>siap aku cakap, lau aku besar nnt, aku nak beli banyak2.</div><div>boley main warna-warna.</div><div><br /></div><div>masa aku kecik2 dulu, <div>aku hope aku cepat besar,</div></div><div>sebab aku nak sangat pakai cd walkman.</div><div>pakai tu nampak cam mewah gila lah..</div><div><br /></div><div>masa aku kecik2 dulu, <div>aku hope aku cepat besar,</div></div><div>sebab orang besar boleh beli macam2 (reason ni lagi)</div><div>aku nak patung barbie.</div><div>tapi tak dapat..</div><div>so aku harap aku cepat besar ada duit sendiri,</div><div>boleh beli apa aku nak.</div><div><br /></div><div>tapi lately,</div><div>aku gi pasar malam,</div><div>ada orang jual sticker, buku colouring ngan mainan.</div><div>aku terpikir, dah besar camni, ada lagi ke orang yang main benda2 cam tu?</div><div>tak bestnye bila dah besar </div><div>siyes~~</div><div><br /></div><div>---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------</div><div><br /></div><div>to be honest, if people ask me to recall what is the best memories that i have when i am a child (since born till 12 years old), i don't think i have a good memories to remember. my child life is not fun after all. when i was a child, or to be exact, when i was born, my father salary is only RM200 at that time. potong2 bayar bil suma, agak2 cukup ke untuk sebulan?</div><div><br /></div><div>so that, i don't really have toys. as i could recall, my toys is from my grown up cousins who didn't need them anymore. so they give it to me. at that moment, receiving them is a bless.. walaupun dah buruk. and i still keep them in my room.</div><div><br /></div><div>and everytime we went out, of course, as a child, i do have those feeling to want those kind of things. but what my mum said,"tak mo lah, mama tak de duit lah nis," and from what my mum told me, tade pulak i hentak2 kaki sebab tak dapat benda tu. sulking, i'm sure i do it, even my mum didn't say anything about it.</div><div><br /></div><div>i guess that's the reason why, when i grow up, i value a lot of things. i have this habit of finding the lowest price instead the quality one with the high price. and i have this bad habit of lying. when my dad ask me,"do you have money right now?" i'll say i have, even i don't really have it... and sometimes, i'll let my account to be zero for a few weeks before i ask for some. </div><div><br /></div><div>i didn't say i'm a good child after all. what i try to say is, i really hate seeing a child being spoiled too much.. seriously.. bila tak dapat sikit, hentak2 kaki, tarik muka masam macam muka lubang tandas. contoh terdekat, my brother.</div><div><br /></div><div>since our family has become a little bit better than before, from what i see, both my mum and my dad spoil my brother too much. it's kinda annoying actually seeing he'll get what he wants. </div><div><br /></div><div>i won't spoil him. that's my promise. i'll treat him like what my mum and my dad treat me last time. because i think how they treat me has produce what i am right now. </div><div><br /></div></div>Irsyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08171547248650859820noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8649470414264076114.post-59453442695821350482011-11-10T14:33:00.003+08:002011-11-10T14:36:43.777+08:00i've make a decision...<div style="text-align: center;">i'll reactivate my facebook account which have a lot of friends in it once i'll travel away from unimap.. that's it...</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: 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class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" >ps: too much drama is not good you know.. i hate it because it always appear good infront while in fact, it is sucks!</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" >ps:ps: thanks for making up my day... ARASHI :P</span></div>Irsyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08171547248650859820noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8649470414264076114.post-70138677017391694932011-10-12T16:40:00.002+08:002011-10-12T16:51:58.398+08:00shock with myselfthis past few weeks, i personally feel that i've change a lot. i don't really like to talk, but everytime i talk, all that i blurted out are nonsense. well, kinda of jokes actually, and all of them are not making any senses. and today, i made another decision:<div><br /></div><div>i decided to deactivate my facebook account. the one that i have "a lot of friends". somehow, i feel that i spend to many time "watching drama" in there, so i decided to deactivate it. yes, it temporary, but i don't know until when.. i just don't have any feeling in my heart to open it, unless if something damn important for me to re-activate it back.</div><div><br /></div><div>yes, i have another FB account, but for time being, i'll let it be for my classmates, family and the one who i want too. </div><div><br /></div><div>i'm shocked because i believe everyone knows i'm an internet addicted. to be exact, facebook addicted. so, me, deactivating FB is something that not many people expect me to do so. yes, i didn't online with skype before, but, i'll install it later. and i'll be active in twitter and myspace after this as i really love to write. don't ask me why i deactivate my FB so many time. for now, i just need some privacy... that's the reason why, the other fb is for me, my family and the people i trust. </div><div><br /></div><div>thats all...</div><div><br /></div><div>((i might be outdated for active in myspace and weird for active in twitter, but, i guess, that is the only way.. ahhh.. tsukareta!!))</div>Irsyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08171547248650859820noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8649470414264076114.post-44593068900406969362011-09-29T17:04:00.003+08:002011-09-29T17:15:24.326+08:00saya bukan sombong, tapi....saya tak friendly... fact yang memang sangat susah nak ubah... which i don't think i really wanna change it..<br /><br />well, not really actually. once, i know them, normally i will definitely be a talkative person... whenever i meet a new people, i don't really be the one who begin the conversation... once i feel awkward being a viewer of a conversation, then only i start talking...<br /><br />so, to whoever begin a conversation with me, i'm sorry that i behave that kind of behaviour.. it has become a habit.. i can't change it easily as i have become so comfortable with that behaviour..<br /><br />try to ask my classmates, i don't usually talk a lot, unless i want to. so, sorry people... i'm really sorry...<br /><br />so in a conclusion, "saya tak sombong, tapi saya tak friendly on a first time knowing you guys.. it takes time"<br /><br />sekian terima kasih<br /><br />ps:// hectic week people.. siyesly.. class yang tertinggal nak kena cover balik.. coih... tolong maafkan saya ye suma.. jangan kecik ati...<br />ps:ps:// life of a fangirl is tiresome and bothersome.. damnitIrsyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08171547248650859820noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8649470414264076114.post-15407767043296776182011-09-27T23:09:00.002+08:002011-09-28T00:01:02.114+08:00kemenangan bukan milik sayathis is not a dissapointed post, it is something to mention. hik...<br /><br />al-kisah... selasa malam, 11.50 pm... somehow, private number appear on my phone screen... kepelikan sangat jelas disitu, sebab biasa kalo private no nih, sorang je... En Wan. so, dijadikan cerita, aku pun angkat telefon and he asked me to go to HEP by the very next morning... ok, dah tak sedap hati dah.. ni mesti kes last2 minit nih... adoi...<br /><br />jadi hari rabu pagi tu, aku pun pergilah ke HEP, sampai pukul 9 pg, then masuk je pejabat en wan, dengar lagu then trus start practice sampai pukul 2 ptg... then malam tu sambung balik.<br /><br />sesi latihan jangan ceritalah... aku nikan penakut high not.. high note memang hancur. then ad-lib yang ntah hape2... berapa kali kena tegur... jadi insiatifnye ialah aku wat fake note kat setiap ad-lib yang kena buat.. bengong kan???<br /><br />ari khamis, aku tak de latihan sebabnya pagi aku ada kelas, petang en wan plak ada hal ngan intake pelajar baru, malam plak aku ada kelas. jadinya, aku pun tak berlatihan lah ari tu... ari khamis tu just cari baju n try settle kan suma je<br /><br />then jumaat pagi, settlekan baju suma, and practice for two hours something je... malam jumaat supposed dah sampai UPSI but maybe terlalu penat, so kiteorg pergi sabtu pagi... so total practice hanya berapa jam je... scary ok tak cukup latihan nih... adehhh...<br /><br />then sampai upsi, first day takde wat apa2... malam tu kiteorg gi tgk yang nyanyian solo punya pertandingan... ahh..sangat sedap suara sorang2... and aku sebenarnya sangat cuak malam tu memikrkan high note yang sangat goyah. so malam tu, dalam kereta pergi tasik kat proton city tu, sambil tu nyanyi practice dalam kereta..<br /><br />sampai pukul 2 pagi kot... penat gila... tu pun en wan suruh wat showmanship malam tu.. siyes da tak larat. then balik bilik trus tido... pagi tu bangun lambat then trus gi wat latihan pentas... disebabkan ada record utk RTM, so rehearsal sampai ke petang.. letih tol. band plak salah main masa rehearsal RTM tu... at that time memang cuak larr... bukan salah main sebenarnya... dorang tak update ngan score baru... so, ada kekeliruan disitu..<br /><br />malam tu, make up suma RTM yang wat... just aku wat tudung je la... adeh.. pening pale den memikirkan camne nak wat tudung tu... but siyesly, for me, costume bukan important pun.. kalo pakai cantik2 nyanyi cam hampeh apa guna?<br /><br />itula yang berlaku malam tu.. evrything seems ok at first.. suma tade masalah... low note suma bley control... but then the last note, hancur!!! pecah kot!!! malu aku.. adoiiiii... masa rehearsal ok je... huhuhu..<br /><br />nak tau tak sebab apa? sebabnya aku lupa nak amik nafas masa part yang sepatutnya aku amik nafas.. and another reason is, suara aku da serak time b4 nyanyi pun... ahh.. dissapoint tol aku time tu... bukan dissapoint sebab apa, tapi dissapoint sebab aku bawak lagu orang kot... lagu baru... cuak yang amat time tu...<br /><br />turun je stage adoiiiii, rasa sangat serba salah!! nak ckp ngan en wan pun rasa cam "adoiii, bersalahnyaa"... a lot of time aku ckp sorry, but still tak hilang rasa bersalah tu....<br /><br />malam tu nasib menyebelahi kami... Inspirasi merdeka, lagu baru yang dicipta oleh en Izwan Izhar dan lirik Qauyum "and" Mimi, berjaya meraih tempat ke-2.... clap3... 3rd place goes to UM and 1st place goes to USIM.<br /><br />why i said kemenangan bukan milik saya... yang menang itu lagu, bukan penyanyi... hell impossible for a singer yang dah terpecah suara waktu perform boleh menang, betul tak? so yang membantu kemenangan kami ialah lagu dan lirik.. saya hanya penyampai lagu...<br /><br />the real congrats should go to en wan and qauyum... not to me actually, saya hanya menumpang... :) adoiii<br /><br />itu je lah... as i said earlier, this is not a dissapointed post... this is just to mention something, to who should the real congrats be... and another story is, saya hanya gfestanti orang untuk pergi wakil tu. heheheh... i wish i can do better next time..i hope... goodness!! please lah...<br /><br />ps:// somehow, i've been cursed with 2nd place lately... festkapp 2nd place, festkum 2nd place, ni patriotik pun 2nd lagi... eh. not me lah... unimap.... hikIrsyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08171547248650859820noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8649470414264076114.post-75246313920574178672011-08-14T17:00:00.003+08:002011-08-14T17:25:53.640+08:00so much to tell<div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>but before that;<div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" >congrats to team nasyid belia 4b perlis</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" >
<br /></span></div><div>huhuhu... they won 1st place untuk pertandingan nasyid belia kebangsaan 2011 baru-baru ni.. eeheh.. congrats.. you guys sure the best.. ye lahhh.. tengok la sape yang masuk pun.. taiko2 terbesar nasyid and performance... kak balqis, qauyum, azuan, redza, fatin, n others... suma nama-nama besar kot.. hik3... not only johan for nasyid ok.. best solo too...warghhh sangat menyesal tak mintak cuti gi support dorang...</div><div>
<br /></div><div>and more... </div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" >congrats to pasukan kompang belia 4b perlis..</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" >
<br /></span></div><div>they won 1st place too.. ahahah.. ni pun taiko2 gak yang masuk... ahhh...credits goes to their trainer too... congrats.. tak sia2 berlatih.. heheheh... </div><div>
<br /></div><div><b>so here we go the 2nd stories...</b></div><div></div><div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div><div>well, i'm officially a fangirl of arashi now.. kuso!!! hahahah... gomen gomen.... somehow i hate an addicted life.. last year i am so into johnny depp, and this year i am so into Arashi which lead to this</div><div><img src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgi4NyS-vhLhpChhJdzpKOqClPo7swVDysVXMs7Yn5Ja6xvAspo0uhm7pAsf50vYFM9bRXhkxOlbVZp7HvPi-EGL2IiicRj2SKuKl3qmvUE5dL8e_eOYV-tPdKtHLRXKg3HDv9luBLTgAuZ/s400/DSC07049.JPG" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5640639175940581250" style="display: block; margin-top: 0px; margin-right: auto; margin-bottom: 10px; margin-left: auto; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 300px; height: 400px; " /></div><div>
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<br /></div><div>yes, i bought their concert dvd for my own birthday present, my own money.. cost RM 30 something.. but worth it for me.. i don't really get present this year... all i got is in form of money RM 50 from my father's friend which I spend it for harry potter, cinema and food..and another RM 200 i got it from my aunt, which i spend RM 60 for Al-Quran with translation and RM 100 for a neclace with key and lock as its locket. ahhh... i'm biased with another RM 40??? MIA... ngee~~</div><div>
<br /></div><div>ahhh.. right after i bought it, i watch it... woahhh.. kakkoii ne Arashi... daisuki desu!!! wargghhh... hontou ni suki!!! well, that shows the 'fangirl side' of mine... ahahahah...</div><div>
<br /></div><div>speaking of present, yes, i'm now 21 years old.. it has been 2 decades i live in this world already... somehow the earth has become so old.. it's not stable anymore... so many earthquake nowadays... ahhh...there's so much to think about</div><div>
<br /></div><div>so i guess that's the end of the post today... i wonder this time, how long am i going to be an Arashi fan.. wonder.... heee~~</div><div>
<br /></div><div>till then, jaa ne~</div>Irsyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08171547248650859820noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8649470414264076114.post-10436558985634602862011-07-17T22:18:00.004+08:002011-07-17T23:36:10.937+08:00last post before i turn 211 hour 20 minutes more... about that time... well, i'm not really 21 this 12.00 o'clock by the way... about 21 years ago, i was born somewhere about 16.46 pm... well i'm not sure about it.. it was written in my birth certificate. the hospital clock might be a lil bit fast or a lil bit late from the exact time.. plus minus i guess.. if everyone keeps thinking the way i am, then there'll be a very big argument about your time of birth.. heheh... <div><br /></div><div>first of all, thanks mama for giving birth of me... through cesarean section... well to have me, it's quite trouble i guess... my mum experienced the placenta previa (have to search in the web to find what its name in English or medical term)... bad for her i guess. Thanks mama for having all those kind of trouble. i'm so sorry by the way. thanks to ayah also... for all the scientific process that takes place in "forming" me...</div><div><br /></div><div>i don't know what exactly i want to say in this post. i guess it's not only about "thank you" things. i've been thinking a lot about what am i supposed to write for this entry.. i wanna make it special... but i don't know how. so i create a lot of question.</div><div><br /></div><div>in this 21 years of living, have i ever feel glad of doing something that at first i am hesitate? i guess a lot. but not many... somehow, when i feel hesitate of doing the thing, it sure end up worst... but not all. there still something that i'm glad doing it. ahh.. i'm so not knowing how to elaborate this..</div><div><br /></div><div>in this 21 years of living, is there anything that i really want and i didn't get? haa.. i'm not born into a bedtime stories which whatever they dream will come true. in fact, i have a lot of things that i want but i keep it secret... it's not about taking care of others feeling... but it is more to my own feeling by the way.. what if i keep hoping to have it yet nothing comes to me? by keeping it to myself, i guess, that's the only way i'll forget it.. if i have it later, i'll be so grateful. if i didn't get it, it will just fade away, the wish.</div><div><br /></div><div>in this 21 years of living, is there anything that i feel regret of? i don't want to say this now. if i'm regret of what i'm doing, i'm afraid, there will be a lot of regret come in future. i fact, i'm afraid of the phrase "regret of what i'm doing". what i believe is, if i regret of doing this thing, anything related to this things in the future will be a big failure. </div><div><br /></div><div>there're a lot of question that i have answer just now. but i guess only these 3 question i really want to share the answer. </div><div><br /></div><div>i don't really remember my memories that i have before. somehow, i pray once before. "ya Allah, please just let the good memories to stay while the bad one, please take it away".... even there are still bad memories lingers in my head, but any kind of childhood memories that i guess is bad for me, i just can't remember it unless someone makes me remember it.. haha... i found it interesting by the way.. Thanks Allah..</div><div><br /></div><div>somehow a lot of things I've got to experience... being a teacher, being a student, being a violinist, being a performer, being a phone seller... and i'm proud of it... </div><div><br /></div><div>i'm not sure if i really have something more to say... i should stop.. i talk many ridiculous things after all... somehow it's bored... now it's left about 30 minutes before 12.00 am... this year, no celebration again.. i guess i stop celebrating my birthday since i am 18... i do celebrate my birthday last when i am 17... i wonder if i will celebrate again in future, but i think it's not really needed after all</div><div><br /></div><div>up till now, i have 2 things that i really want.. soon or later if i didn't get it, i'll buy it myself.. and these two things, i wont forget as i already told someone that i want them... muahahaha...</div><div>*Al-quran with translation <--- i just want to know what is the meaning of every word i recite...*</div><div>*A necklace with key as a locket <--- i have one before, i guess i'm around 15 or 16 that time, but my mum says that if someone wear a necklace with key, it shows you're already 21... so i ask her to keep it for me and once i turn 21, i want it back... it cost only RM2 by the way... i ask her again this year if she still have it, but then she said,"entah ada, entah tidak" (in another word, she not sure if she still have it) (-.-"") so i guess, i need a new one. soon or later.. even if it cost 100 and above, i'm still going to find it and wear it.. for sure!!! that's it.. ngeh3</div><div><br /></div><div>between: happy birthday to me :))) let me be the first to wish myself :D</div><div><br /></div><div>thanks Allah for letting me to live up till now. even i'm not a good muslim, but as time flies, i wish to be a better one... to everyone else who read this, please pray for me... thanks a lot :))</div>Irsyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08171547248650859820noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8649470414264076114.post-31773579172739405312011-07-01T00:15:00.003+08:002011-07-01T00:20:06.653+08:00what's the point???<div style="text-align: center;">what's the point of having a special one in your life, but all you get is a full regret and heartache</div><div><br /> <div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" >(T.T) i want it no more..</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span"><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" >so sorry to reject you</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span"><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" >this is my answer to your words</span></div></div>Irsyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08171547248650859820noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8649470414264076114.post-68814929506728555022011-06-19T20:08:00.002+08:002011-06-19T20:26:38.897+08:00sawang yang penuh...eh penuh ke? tak la penuh mana pun kan??? baru sebulan tak menaip.. heheh... yay! holiday people... 4 months... hahah. well.. i already spend nearly a month by the way.. ngee... result was out (ahha... i guess that one is a broken english.. heheeh) ... somehow, got mistakes here and there on my result.. so got to recheck the calculation back.. seriously...<div><br /></div><div>my current obsession??? ahhahahah... Arashi.. gosh.. penuh external HD aku download talk show ngan pv... something about japanese entertainment industries... i guess they have some people who use to monitor youtube so that no video of their idol in there... copyright things... good effort by the way...:)</div><div><br /></div><div>ahh.. siyes.. if you don't have mood, tolong la jangan tulis blog... or else it's going to end up like this.... boredddd!!!!!!</div><div><br /></div><div>ps:// i just created a livejournal account... but, siyes no idea how it will work for me or how am i going to work on it... </div><div><br /></div><div>ps2:// if i able to write again later, i'll wrote about my working experienced.. as a nursery teacher</div><div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div></div>Irsyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08171547248650859820noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8649470414264076114.post-6995174017876332372011-05-11T12:23:00.003+08:002011-05-11T12:29:07.781+08:00moving<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi8iMMa6mfgBswlNLBdztJ2LH8f-w7w0Gf76TyLxyw2sR64lV3t0xXq8jT8xi-HB8ixtUQ58-vERrQfK-jHfKuNGamPZ4cWWGk8YsK26ZzAitjP4hjCAW8YKcXGD_oZLSB3vrxFpZOrO2JP/s1600/notis.jpg" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 266px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi8iMMa6mfgBswlNLBdztJ2LH8f-w7w0Gf76TyLxyw2sR64lV3t0xXq8jT8xi-HB8ixtUQ58-vERrQfK-jHfKuNGamPZ4cWWGk8YsK26ZzAitjP4hjCAW8YKcXGD_oZLSB3vrxFpZOrO2JP/s400/notis.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5605310562330448850" /></a><br />yep, i'm moving out... well not my family, but me and my classmates... i wonder why they're moving us... seriously it's heartbreaking after all.. i hate moving... it's tiring :(<div><br /></div><div>they said it's already been confirm, but we'll wait and see for next sem. ahhh... another tired sem i guess...<br /><div><div><br /><div><br /></div><div><br /></div></div></div></div>Irsyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08171547248650859820noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8649470414264076114.post-15232176127923234882011-05-10T17:12:00.002+08:002011-05-10T17:25:35.394+08:00it's rainingyup... it's raining.. you're not wrongly reading it... hell to yeah i'm not going to sing those 'rain rain go away. come the other day" song.. it's not needed... Perlis really need rain after all...<br /><br />ahhh.. it's a dry season, and i hate it.. somehow i prefer rain than hot sunny day... it's not that troublesome to bring umbrella along, but yet it'll be troublesome if you don't bring it... ngee~~~<br /><br />speeking of that, it quite a long time Perlis didn't experienced any rain.. it has been a hot day even at night. and it has been a long time since the last time i have enough and proper sleep. i'll sleep at two a.m everyday and i'll wake up at 4 a.m. why? it's so 'comfortable' to sleep in this kind of situation... "hot + exam" situation. grrr... somehow i'm tired, but still it'll be my routine... 2 am to 4 am is my sleep time... if i able to sleep again, i'll sleep or else, i'll open my notes and once i feel sleepy, i'll sleep again :D<br /><br />yet, i still have one more paper left. Geomatic engineering... the most-hated-and-fail subject for me. i didn't get any idea about the subject though. i hate it... it's not because of the lecturer (don't want to put a blame on others), it's because of me after all... sick, skipping class, not focus.... good for that..well it's three days left before the final paper, i guess i still have time though.. haish...<br /><br />pray for me people... :)<br /><br />((it's bored acually... and i'm so into my mood to write an entry in english... it didn't appear any red, so i guess no problem with my spelling, but maybe my grammar... ahhhhh... damn it!)Irsyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08171547248650859820noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8649470414264076114.post-2760275781131623882011-04-23T17:24:00.003+08:002011-04-23T17:27:46.964+08:00ready tak ready kena face jugakha... next week dah start exam. tapi aku semacam tak ready je.. ye lah, dok menadap laptop seharian, pastu tgk moie.. ngek kan? but alhamdulillah, few subjek ada dah buat revision awal, just nak tgk imbas2 je..huhuh<br /><br />but siyesly, aku tak tahu pun aku exam apa n bila.. ang aku tahu, dua paper pertama aku ialah heat n mass ngan statistic engineering... percaya atau tak, dua subjeck ni aku macam ready gila2 nak amik exam... ahahaha.. others, hurmm... macam lalang dah.<br /><br />pape pun, kawan2 beta... gud luck ye... ganbatte ne!!!! huhu <---- influence cita jepun... aishhh~~<br /><br />that's all from me... huhu.. pray for me people.. :)Irsyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08171547248650859820noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8649470414264076114.post-70056919991321084882011-04-17T12:27:00.003+08:002011-04-17T13:13:13.893+08:00update before a week of studyhurm... finally, dapat pun peluang utk update blog.. bukan setakat peluang, but mood.. itu yang penting... hehheh...<br /><br />owh, new things about me? kalo sape baca my status kat FB, they'll know yang i sangat2 addicted ngan drama jepun right now. haaa... kalo dulu bosan mengadap laptop, but semenjak oguri shun jadi my desktop background nih, excited pulak ngadap laptop... huhuuh....<br /><br />owh, yes, saya minat oguri shun... tambah lagi dengan matsumoto jun.. haaa... mengeluh aku dengar nama dua org nih... tapi.. something that you guys really need to know, i don't think that they really take my heart away from Johnny depp. take my eyes, yes, but heart, no! huhu... siyesly weyh, they don't even care... ahahha.. so why should i?<br /><br />owh ye, i've received award of "sri budayawati" unimap. arigatou!!!!! i believed i received the award due to my involvement in performance and talent i grew in UniMAP.. not only singing, but i do become a violinist to supposed-two-but-one competition which is keroncong.. the othe one which i didn't got chance to join is that sayembara puisi.. sad (T.T)<br /><br />i love doing all, singing, music, dancing.. but still in unimap, i haven't got chance to dance yet... owh yes, better not... take away that words!! ahahah...<br /><br />so, my whole gratitude is to those who help me along last year, this year in performance and competition.. without you guys, i won't be able to do by myself. thanks to En Wan for giving me chance to join dondang sayang, nasyid bla bla bla, to libren, azuan, and abg det for da help and support for festkum... abg det especially because a lot of things from him... walaupun keroncong tak menang (hua T.T).. haish.. tu la berlagak sangat tak nak buat warm up suara pagi... grrrr... then to en mi, kak ita, en fendi, kak wani... n suma lah... thanks you so much<br /><br />then to coki, naz, kak aida, my classmates who really2 appreciate my talent after all. and of course to those yang meminjamkan saya alat make up n selendang n kasut utk show.. ahha... saya pinjam selendang, bukan baju.. ngeee.. talking about this, hurm ada yang tak senang bila tgk saya terlampau aktif... tak tahu la apa masalah anda... sorry to said.. but lately, aside from being a first-impression- thought person, i'm also has become a tone and facial reader... obvious sangat ada yang tak ikhlas.. kalo anda tak ikhlas, you don't have to say a word pun... tak perlu nak membusuk hati..<br /><br />owh, ini bukan dituju kepada classmate saya ye... tapi kepada mereka2 yang berkenaan... know wha, i hate talking right now. yet i hate listening to what people talks... cause sometimes, keikhlasan tu takde... much better don't ask n don't talk..<br /><br />no one really understand, but as i said before, never hope people to understand you and accept you.. you'll find it meaningless.. kan? owh, actually niat tak nak emo taip entry nih, but, terpaksa... ok shut the hell case.<br /><br />saya sangat kesian kat classmate saya sebenarnya... compare saya dengan mereka, mereka sangat rajin.. kalo saya tido pukul 12, dorang akan tido pukul 2. kalo saya tido pukul 2, dorang akan tido pukul 4... kalo saya tido pukul 4, dorang takkan tido n terus pegi kelas esoknya.. ni suma gara2 lab report n design project... siyesly ppk bioproses, utk adik2 junior saya nnt, jangan lah letakkan sampai 4 lab dalam satu semester... anda da grab kami punya planning utk subject wajib jugak... next sem, kena struggle utk subjek wajib pulak... sabar je lah...<br /><br />siyesly, i wonder... am i really a 2nd year student.. cause i feel like i'm a 4th year student who undergoes FYP progress. everyday in lab, everyday mengadap laptop buat lab... owh my life is pathetic!<br /><br />hurmm... cukup lah merapu... mood bengang sebab all lab report hilang dek virus!Irsyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08171547248650859820noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8649470414264076114.post-43503170659588879952011-04-05T14:41:00.002+08:002011-04-05T14:44:36.620+08:00pergi mampus sama ko!!!! wahai test!!!fuck! aku benci test banyak2... tapi apa boleh buat... inilah hakikatnya... sebab banjir hari tu, suma test terpaksa postpone. nak salahkan sape?<br /><br />aku tak suka test sebab aku belajar dengan mood... kalo aku belajar, tapi mood aku tak de, mesti apa yang aku baca suma tak masuk... aku rasa most of my mood comes with calculation... that's y i'll start my study with maths...<br /><br />aku merapu apa nih? argghhh<br /><br />kesimpulannya, aku sangat hilang mood... tolong jangan dekat...Irsyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08171547248650859820noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8649470414264076114.post-70390757014497246822011-03-26T16:46:00.002+08:002011-03-26T16:55:42.701+08:00I'm sorryi'm sorry anis<div>because i didn't stand for you.. i keep down to my self. to someone who are unable to stand up and speak for you</div><div><br /></div><div>i'm sorry anis</div><div>because i cause you a lot of trouble. if i strong enough, you won't just fall in love</div><div><br /></div><div>i'm sorry anis</div><div>because i'm weak. which cause you to have a lot of hope even by simple words</div><div><br /></div><div>i'm sorry anis</div><div>because i never try to be strong without love</div><div><br /></div><div>i'm sorry anis</div><div>for every single things that has cause you hurt for what ever i want.</div><div><br /></div><div>.............................................</div><div><br /></div><div>and i just can say</div><div>"it's not ur fault wahai hati... it's my fault. because it's me who should control you. bukan kamu yang control saya. ikut kata hati. tak semua kata hati perlu saya turutkan."</div><div><br /></div><div>and today,</div><div>wahai hati.. kuatkanlah dirimu, aku aku turut menjadi kuat. aku tak gagal, cuma aku baru bermula... maka dengan ini, biarlah engkau tinggal kosong tanpa perkara2 yang bisa menyeksakan hatimu, dan penuhkan dirimu wahai hati dengan ilmu dari segenap sudut. agar tiada ruang buat kekecewaan menumpang walau sekelumit di bahagian mu.</div><div><br /></div><div>apa yang berlaku hari ni, jadikan semangat buat aku, yang bergelar wanita. aku mahu berjaya! itu yang aku mahu.. aku tak mahu perkara lain buat sementara waktu.</div><div><br /></div><div>ps:// i actually think that allah is fullfill my doa once before.. i want one last love, and i want that love for a marriage... i think Allah really fullfill my doa.. so why should i be sad? i should be gratefull. shouldn't i? yes i should!</div><div><br /></div>Irsyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08171547248650859820noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8649470414264076114.post-72952672878697515702011-03-14T13:16:00.002+08:002011-03-14T13:44:16.115+08:00saya rasa pelik, nape eh?something wrong.yes.wrong. ntah hape hape.<br /><br />i wanna post bout yesterday. just a few. semalam join pertandingan 60an kat kangar ni ha. everything was going fine in the beginning, masuk saringan, lepas saringan, masuk final, buat rehearsal. every single thing is fine. but then bila tiba kat final, damn it! pecah! hampeh betul.<br /><br />what i didn't understand is why? padahal, semuanya elok awal2, bila tarikh penting everything is spoil. masalahnya, bukan setakat nyanyian, even buat experiment pun suma tak jadi. apa yang berlaku nih?<br /><br />nervous??<br /><br />nervous ke? hurm... masa belakang stage tu, memang gila nervous. tapi bila naik stage tu, trus cuba hilangkan nervous.. berjaya. tapi, mungkin bila dah nervous tu, nafas dah habis, jadi tak dapat nak tarik ngan betul. serious, i'm real dissapointed with myself, because i know i can do better than yesterday, but shit la... nape lah jadi cam ni.<br /><br />everytime nak perform masalahnya. i think it start from preview festkum. belakang pentas confident, bila atas stage, nervous tak hilang, trus performance jadi teruk. damn it lah... nape ni wahai NUR SYAHIDATUL ANIS? apa masalah anda sebenarnya?<br /><br />mungkinkah saya mengalami masalah tak confident pada diri sendiri? pada bakat sendiri? i really don't know the answer. but sometimes, i know i have talent, but, maybe yes, i don't really confident with it.. sabar je lah..<br /><br />or maybe i have a stage fright?<br /><br />from http://www.ehow.com/how_4868091_overcome-stage-fright-singing.html<br /><br /><ol id="intelliTxt"><li id="jsArticleStep1"><p>Acquire complete comfort with your performance material. When you are singing, you should focus on the execution rather than frantically attempt to remember lyrics, notes and entrances. Natural nervousness can amplify into full-blown stage fright when you are not secure with the material.</p> </li><li id="jsArticleStep2"> <p>Thoroughly warm up your vocal chords and body before a performance. The first affects of stage fright can strongly increase tension in the throat and various muscles throughout the body. Preempt this problem by doing vocal warm-ups, moderate limb stretches and deep breathing <a class="StrongLink" href="http://www.ehow.com/sports/">exercises</a>.</p> </li><li id="jsArticleStep3"> <p>Immerse yourself in the appropriate emotions of the piece and allow your performance to follow suit. Vocal performance is not only <a class="StrongLink" href="http://www.ehow.com/weddings-and-parties/">entertaining</a> but cathartic for both the singer and the audience. Staying in the moment, as opposed to anticipating mistakes or mishaps that haven't even happened, will push your stage fright to the back your mind.</p> </li><li id="jsArticleStep4"> <p>Connect with your audience. One of the scariest things about performing is the idea that everyone's eyes are on you and you alone. You can overcome this fear by feeding on the attention of the audience rather than dreading it. Make eye contact with individual members as if you were the only two in the room, essentially drawing them into your performance.</p> </li><li id="jsArticleStep5"> <p>Genuinely enjoy yourself. This might sound simple, but it's easy to allow the anxiety of singing in front of an audience to eclipse the reasons you wanted to sing in the first place. Replace the pressure of not making a mistake with the intention of having a great time.</p></li></ol>i should apply this.in future.i hopeIrsyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08171547248650859820noreply@blogger.com0