Diet!!!!

*gelak jap* berkurun lama cakap nak diet nak diet. tak diet2 jugak.

tp, kali ni serious. puncanya? cik kawan post gambar dia kat whatsapp, cakap dia dah bley muat blazer dia masa form 5. me was like woaaahhhhh.. ok. let's try this diet.

Atkins. pernah dengar? tak pernah sila google lain. secara am nye ialah, low carb, high protein diet. so makan lah banyak mana pun, but low than 20 g of carb. well this is for induction.

so last week, before aku gi perlis, aku abruptly start. for a week, tak amik nasi, gula etc. malangnya hari ke dua aku diet, aku terus demam. but still, aku continue gak.

tapi aku ada ragu2 gak ngan diet ni. ye lah amik ayam, telur, deaging, ikan. sumber protein yang ada kolestrol and lemak. aku cam risau gak effect kat tempat lain. tapi aku tny kekawan aku, seorang tgh study medic. dia kata insyaAllah x ada effect apa kalau kita follow 4 step tu. so, aku pun dengan yakin tak yakin nye continue.

tapikan, still ada musykil gak. so, masa ak gi jumpa doktor tu, aku mintak doktor tu buatkan appointment ngan dietrician. so 14/10 insyaAllah aku gi jumpa doktor tanya should aku continue diet ni.

anyway. masa 1 minggu aku try dieat ni, berat aku turun dari 100kg ke 94.5kg. *tepuk sikit*. then bila aku gi perlis, aku pakat cheat habis, air minum air manis, makan tak pantang, berat aku naik balik 98.5 kg. amik ko. -.-"

so skang ni start balik. Alhamdulillah, turun gak la semalam aku timbang. turun sekilo pun happy nye ya Allah!!

menu diet aku simple. tapi aku tak amik telur hari2. aku ganti ngan tauhu putih. aku cari dlm tenet, bacaannya dalam 1.21g carb je sebiji. tapi aku siyes tak suka tauhu. so aku tak amik sebiji. amik setengah. hahah.

nak post menu. tapi aku siyes malas. tengoklah kalo 1st week aku berjaya, nnt aku post menu aku everyday eh.

toodles~

last post before i turn 21

1 hour 20 minutes more... about that time... well, i'm not really 21 this 12.00 o'clock by the way... about 21 years ago, i was born somewhere about 16.46 pm... well i'm not sure about it.. it was written in my birth certificate. the hospital clock might be a lil bit fast or a lil bit late from the exact time.. plus minus i guess.. if everyone keeps thinking the way i am, then there'll be a very big argument about your time of birth.. heheh...

first of all, thanks mama for giving birth of me... through cesarean section... well to have me, it's quite trouble i guess... my mum experienced the placenta previa (have to search in the web to find what its name in English or medical term)... bad for her i guess. Thanks mama for having all those kind of trouble. i'm so sorry by the way. thanks to ayah also... for all the scientific process that takes place in "forming" me...

i don't know what exactly i want to say in this post. i guess it's not only about "thank you" things. i've been thinking a lot about what am i supposed to write for this entry.. i wanna make it special... but i don't know how. so i create a lot of question.

in this 21 years of living, have i ever feel glad of doing something that at first i am hesitate? i guess a lot. but not many... somehow, when i feel hesitate of doing the thing, it sure end up worst... but not all. there still something that i'm glad doing it. ahh.. i'm so not knowing how to elaborate this..

in this 21 years of living, is there anything that i really want and i didn't get? haa.. i'm not born into a bedtime stories which whatever they dream will come true. in fact, i have a lot of things that i want but i keep it secret... it's not about taking care of others feeling... but it is more to my own feeling by the way.. what if i keep hoping to have it yet nothing comes to me? by keeping it to myself, i guess, that's the only way i'll forget it.. if i have it later, i'll be so grateful. if i didn't get it, it will just fade away, the wish.

in this 21 years of living, is there anything that i feel regret of? i don't want to say this now. if i'm regret of what i'm doing, i'm afraid, there will be a lot of regret come in future. i fact, i'm afraid of the phrase "regret of what i'm doing". what i believe is, if i regret of doing this thing, anything related to this things in the future will be a big failure.

there're a lot of question that i have answer just now. but i guess only these 3 question i really want to share the answer.

i don't really remember my memories that i have before. somehow, i pray once before. "ya Allah, please just let the good memories to stay while the bad one, please take it away".... even there are still bad memories lingers in my head, but any kind of childhood memories that i guess is bad for me, i just can't remember it unless someone makes me remember it.. haha... i found it interesting by the way.. Thanks Allah..

somehow a lot of things I've got to experience... being a teacher, being a student, being a violinist, being a performer, being a phone seller... and i'm proud of it...

i'm not sure if i really have something more to say... i should stop.. i talk many ridiculous things after all... somehow it's bored... now it's left about 30 minutes before 12.00 am... this year, no celebration again.. i guess i stop celebrating my birthday since i am 18... i do celebrate my birthday last when i am 17... i wonder if i will celebrate again in future, but i think it's not really needed after all

up till now, i have 2 things that i really want.. soon or later if i didn't get it, i'll buy it myself.. and these two things, i wont forget as i already told someone that i want them... muahahaha...

*Al-quran with translation <--- i just want to know what is the meaning of every word i recite...*

*A necklace with key as a locket <--- i have one before, i guess i'm around 15 or 16 that time, but my mum says that if someone wear a necklace with key, it shows you're already 21... so i ask her to keep it for me and once i turn 21, i want it back... it cost only RM2 by the way... i ask her again this year if she still have it, but then she said,"entah ada, entah tidak" (in another word, she not sure if she still have it) (-.-"") so i guess, i need a new one. soon or later.. even if it cost 100 and above, i'm still going to find it and wear it.. for sure!!! that's it.. ngeh3

between: happy birthday to me :))) let me be the first to wish myself :D

thanks Allah for letting me to live up till now. even i'm not a good muslim, but as time flies, i wish to be a better one... to everyone else who read this, please pray for me... thanks a lot :))

raya yang....

semua org pun update bout raya..hurmm~ nak update gak, but no serious event larr time raya ri tu... kami lebih kepada bergambar.. ntah lah.. mood kali ni lebih kepada bergambar je.. humm

raya first.. macam biasa, pagi raya pergi solat sunat hari raya kat surau IPD Seremban.. tema tahun ini..pink. tapi gambar dalam kamera mama, so, tak dapat nak diuploadkan disini... selepas salam2 n mintak maaf,((si kucing pun salam ayah juga..huhuhu)), kami rehat sekejap and balik ke kampung wan di selangor. hurm..

duit raya di sini agak banyak yer.. huhu.. wan bagi 10 bugs... every year pun macam tu.. dia memang bagi cucu2 yang besar2 ni nilai yang besar.. n pakcik sahak gave me RM50. the highest amount this year.. En Ayah bagi juga, RM 100,tapi dia bagi sebelum raya... so, that one tak consider as duit raya k.. itu dipanggil "duit belanja raya".ngeh3

my mum dia da mintak my uncle crkan tiket utk balik ke kuala kangsar @ ipoh @ taiping, tapi, tiket habis.. mana tak nye..cr tiket esok nak raya.. memang la da habis.. jadi, En Ayah decide utk hantar kami terus ke Kuala Kangsar.. heee~

"Ayah kena balik esok subuh tau. tak boleh lama.cuti tak de, kena present hari isnin, nnt tak sempat", dalam hati aku.. " haish..esok kena balik, maknanye lusa jugak lah balik tu" hahah... jahat tak? and kami sampai kuala kangsar about pukul 10.30pm.. dari Jeram, Kuala Selangor pukul 5.30pm kot..tak ingat..but area time cm tu ah.... and sampai2 je terus makan.. dorang buat BBQ... ada coleslaw lagi..eh, cmtu eh eja dia?

tido sangat lewat that time. kami tgk video kami menari masa family day ri tu.. ahahah..damn worst! jangan dibuat dah. by the next morning, bangun sangat lewat.. pn mama suda menjerit menggunakan high pic nye ((ahahaha, now i know dr mana i dapat saprano voice)), sampai my cousin ckp "mak chak punya suara, nyaring" huhuhu.. selepas siap2, kami pun mulakan sesi bergambar sesama cousin.. huhuhu... sangat best. n tak beraya mana pun..duk umah je.. ke Kuala pun idak, ke kedaipun tak.. dok ngadap lappy je..

ni ada 2 generation.. me and my cousins and our nieces and nephew.. my cousins children actually

me in yellow

raya third baru beraya jauh.. ke bagan serai n taiping.. bagan serai sebab rumah my cousin punya ehem2, n taiping rumah my cousin punya kawan punya kawan. ahahah.. no duit raya pun..but bergambar lagi.. heheh..

ni all my cousin... grey theme

me in orange.heee~

balik pun da dekat malam. kami dok enjoy sakan je la.. lepas solat, kuar pi Kuala kangsar plak.. pi amik gambar sana sini.. lemas tol pakai jubah.. ahaha... maybe sebab inner tu panas kot..hehehe... lepas ni cr yang kurang panas sket.. huhu...

balik ke seremban, tumpang my cousin sampai KL, then kami naik komuter ke seremban.. dalam komuter my adik buat hal pulaaa.... tak tahan nak tekucil.. so i said to my mum " mama gi seremban dulu, anis bawak adik gi buang air", and kami berhenti di Tiroi.. 1 more station utk sampai seremban.. tapi sebab si adik dah tak tahan sangat... so, pergi je laaa..

comeykan pose nih? ahahah..my brother punya idea tau.. his pose larr.. my pose tak..ngee~

sebabkan itu, kami terpaksa tunggu another 1 hour utk ke seremban. keretapi buat hal plak.. lambat gila..sampai en Ayah membebel2 dalam telefon marah saya.. adoi.. sabar je lah.. bukan niat saya nak berlama2 di tiroi ayah.. keretapi tu buat hal.. kalo lah tiroi tu ada midvalley or JJ or Isetan or Pavillion or anything related to it.. boley laa berniat nk lama2.. ni, tempat tu scary kot... ish...

da balik lagi bertambah boring laa.. tak jalan mana pun.. dengan tekak yang sakit.. memang dok pantang itu ini la jawabnye.. so then decide cr tiket awal.. dapat tiket jumaat ke perlis.. yay naik kereta api.. suka~ huhuhu

boringkan entry nih? tu sebab malas nak cerita.. pic masa kat kuala kangsar time malam2 tu tak dapat nk letak lah.. tetiba hilang plak.. dah hilang mood nih.. huhuhu.. ngee~

len masa lah saya letak k..daa~

saya tiba tiba happy

nak tau kenapa? sebab kereta suda ada di rumah.. hohoho... even though my dad tak happy sebab kena keluarkan 1600/= ganti gearbox yang suda hancur..huhu..

maybe petang ni kot, pergi ambik tiket keretapi balik perlis.. owh tempat itu lagi..hehehe... can't wait actually. i feel like when i'm at home, i use less my brain to think critical things. bila balik unimap, laju je kepala otak nak pikir... hurm...

this sem, akan ada banyak perubahan.. perlu ada.. mungkinkah saya akan kurus? we'll wait and see larr... i hope so..banyak nye mulut2 yang tak reti diam. haish~

UniMAP..here i come (in two weeks time)

ps//... ayah saya kata kalo ada duit, dia nak belikan kereta... boley bawak balik unimap... for me... ada, ada la..tak de pun tak pe.. kereta is not yet one of my priorities. kalo ada, baguih jugak... huhuhu... just pray~

am i a bad sister? owh yes i am

yesterday, the whole house of mine black out... disebabkan rumah kami is somewhere in the centre, so, macam kilat tu sambar umah kami. while everone else punya rumah dah recover, kami punya rumah still bergelap.

my younger brother...hurm... i don't know what to say. dia tu penakut melampau2. kalo kami suruh dia naik atas sorang2, mesti dia tak mau. penakut. and the whole house semalam bergelap menyebabkan dia berhimpit dengan kami... sampai i rasa sesak nafas.

then after ada org datang betulkan, dia ckp fuse da terbakar, so dia direct current kan. damn..bosan for a few hours, i didn't care. i want to play with my lappy. so, i open and main game dalam lappy... bosan jugak. turun bawah, i saw my younger brother blum tido lagi... so i lay besides him and stare at his face.

timbul idea jahat... i pegang hidung dia, kuis2 sikit..then the conversation begin

me: Adik, dekat adik punya hidung ada ulat warna putih.
((dia pegang hidung dia macam nak buang ulat tu.))
me: adik pegang buat apa? dia dah masuk dalam hidung dah.
him: tipu!
me: betul la....((sweet silence)).. habislah.. esok adik bangun, lubang idung adik dah tak de dua dah... tinggal satu je.lubang besarrrr..

he stares at me. tahan gelak je lah'

him: kakak ni, jangan lah tipu... jap adik tanya mama
((mama turun tangga))
him: mama, ada ulat tak kat atas hidung adik?
mama: ulat apa?
me: ulat yang kalo dia masuk hidung tu nanti dia makan isi hidung
mama: haah ada.

hahaha...mama pun subahat gak. then my younger brother lay back. stares again at me. and then dia buat macam bersin, hoping benda tu keluar laa.. then i say.

me: tu la, main tempat merepek2, jadi budak nakal, ulat tu memang suka kat budak nakal.
him: mana ada adik main kat tempat merepek. adik main kat taman je..
((silence, and then, he starts to merengek))
me:gi jumpa mama
((ran to my mum))
him: mama, ada tak ulat atas hidung adik?
mama: ulat apa anis?
me: ulat yang warna putih tu la. yang makan hidung tu.
mama: ha, seh kan biar ulat tu kuar
((my younger brother buat macam bersin dua kali,))
mama: dah kuar dah.

dia dah macam gald benda tu tak de kat dia. then i say

me: gi tido, nanti benda tu datang balik
(he ignore)
me: degil la dia ni. ha, tu atas hidung tu ada warna putih, ha, abis la dia dah masuk balik hidung adik.
(muka curious)
me: esok, adik bangun, hidung adik tinggal satu lubang je...

and then, straight dia nangis...WTH??? hahahah... waktu tu my mum tgh ckp telefon, and i said

me: jangan nangis, nanti dia kuar.
(drop phone)
mama: dah dah, gi tido, lambat tido, nanti lagi di kuar

dia trus pergi tido kat atas toto tu,

me: selamat malam
him: selamat malam(without opening his eyes)
me: takut ke?
him: takut.

hahahah...kelakar. then i leave him, naik atas jap,dalam pukul 1 pg, still tak leh tido, my mum said to me... dia sangat takut, sampai mengigau. and bangun pagi tadi, badan dia sangat panas, macam nak demam. bangn pagi tadi pun, he asked once again to my mum," mama, ada tak ulat atas hidung adik?" before dia gi sekolah..

hohoho... jahat gila i kan..ngee~~~ sorry..saja nak menyakat..geram sangat... now i know that my younger brother is afraid of cockroach, darkness and ulat atas hidung..heheheheh

boley jadi pulak

-Anugerah Khas Kebudayaan-

oh well, itulah yang saya dapat dalam Anugerah Gemilang Siswa semalam. but something happened yesterday menyebabkan aku jadi down tahap jurang dunia paling dalam..heheh

boleh plak, masa chorus lagu Can't take my eyes of you, oleh pecah plak time perkataan 'you'.
haiyooo..sungguh sedih~ dah lah pas abes slot show tu trus amek anugerah..adoi adoi adoi... sick~
selama ni slalu risau kat I sebab, itu first hight note, so macam kat situ nak control, skali,len plak jadinye..selama ni, takde lak masalah. ces.

pape pun, i just wanna say thank you pada En Wan, sebab kalo masa audition masa MSK tu En.Wan tak pilih, tak de nye aku dapat anugerah nih, thanks gak kat En Mi, sebab banyak tarik aku nyanyi ngan band, and dapat gak peluang men violin kat Unimap nih, walo pun aku tak sehebat mana pun.

thanks gak kat all band members: previous; Tono, Zul and Adnan and present; Naim, Daus, Pojie,Haikal, 4chain...thanks a lot. min and 4chain special thanks sebab angkut aku balik wang ulu..hehehe

to nasyid members jugak; Hanis, Anis, Fatin, Qauyum, Alimin, Din (budayawan kot), and others*just to name a few* thanks alot...

tak lupa gak festkum band members... pojie senior, nije ngan paan. nice memories. :)

itu je lah kot... heh.

oh ye..enough is enough... kembalilah pada buku n notes..suda abes show, jangan pikir lagi..walaupun kecewa..ye Irsya~~~~

congrats kat Din sebab dapat budayawan..to Qauyum and Kak Balqis..congrats dapat anugerah versatile... andalah budayawan dan budayawati yang saya kagumi di unimap..cayalah :)

kenapa....????

kenapa taste aku ialah lelaki pkai spectacles?

my ex b4 this wear it..that apek also wear it, that Y also wear it..and just now when out by bus..and i spot a school boy...((i believe he is form 5 because he's holding a add math revision book...he also wearing a spectacles..heh~ why are they so attracting me?

but... mr. K tak pakai kan..ngee.. walaupun ada org ckp kat aku dia tu rabun warna

boring ngan hitam

sangat boring ngan warna hitam..punya lah lama friendster profile tu warna hitam...also with my blog..maka tukarlah ke warna yang lebih ceria...suka!

!!!!biru!!!

some question for me

1. how are you?

erm...i think worst...more to lovesick..wek

2. who was the last person you hugged?

my mom

3. where do you like to be the most?

my room...

4. whats your fave film?

HP maybe

5. what did you last laugh about?

imagine about guys [name] driving a car..will he look hot?

6. where was your default took?

no idea

7. whats the first thing you look for in a girl/guy?

erm.. he look smart but not handsome, and he is not in relation with anyone

8. if your in school, whats your fave lesson?

history

9. what do you work as / want to work as?

hoping to be a doctor but seems like my PSPM were just like hell... so i have nothing to think...

10. do you play video games? if so, which is your fave game?

= nope. game dalam handphone ada lah...

11. who never fails to make you laugh?

my friends yang tinggal kat room p3tb04..yang juga merupakan sumber food yang tak mengecewakan

12. what are you listening to right now?

erm...indie songs kowt

13. i bet you miss someone, who?!

adalah...

14. are you happy with your life right now?

no...

15. who was the last person you texted?

ayue~ and she makes me laugh

16. who do you live with?

family.. i have no bf right? not even husband

17. do you like living with them?

sangat..sumber food+money+happiness+entertainment+blablabla

18. what does your profile song mean to you?

ada ke? macam tak letak..

19. who did you last shout at and why?

Tiara kowt..because..dia memilih sangat!

20. are you normally a happy person?

maybe..because saya si kanak2 riang...kanak2 tak de masalah kan? tapi macam tak je

21. what was the last thing you went to see in the movies and with who?

last movie...hum..fun with dick and jane..ngan my cousin..farah

22. do you remember how you was 3 years ago?

cam ngah amik pmr je.

23. if you had one wish, what would you wish for?

hope examiners yang tanda paper bio tu silap kira markah bagi lebih sikit

24. when was the last time you lied?

pagi tadi kowt..masa exam muet..

25. any last words?

sorry yer...bahasa melayu saya agak merepk skang ni sebab banyak sangat guna bahasa pasar.. and my english doesn't goes so good.. eh eh eh..thank you