please!!!!!

aku ni jenis yang lantak ko lah... aku peduli apa. so, kalo ko rasa ko ada tak puas ati ngan aku, sila cakap. sebab aku sendiri dah naik meluat tengok ko yang obvious gila hipokrit nye.

aku tak kisah ngan apa ko buat sebab, lagi ko try buat aku annoyed, lagi tu lah aku akan buat tak tahu and menyebabkan ko lagi annoyed kat aku.. sebelum ko sakit jiwa, better ko buat sesuatu.

relation yang ada skang ni pun sebab aku pk ko kawan aku... kalo ko rasa sebaliknya..do something. sebab aku akan trus buat bodo as aku tak rasa menyampah atau sakit ati kat ko. kalo aku rasa annoy kat ko, dah lama aku ignore ko...

so, skang ni, aku buat ikut apa yang aku tahu... kalo ko tak nak buat, n nak terus diam macam batu atau tunggul, atau trus menerus nak annoy aku, or buat aku macam tak wujud, aku tak kisah..repeated words!!! AKU TAK KISAH. HIDUP KO, HIDUP KO! AKU TAK CAMPUR.
kalo ko rasa itu mampu buat ko senang hati, teruskanlah, sebab ckup masa, ko pulak aku annoy kan.

updating for himpun

agak bengang disini...unimap ni pe cer ha? suma benda nak blog.. rasa cm hampeh je. owh ye..dikhabarkan berita bahawa show hari tu kami dapat RM60 je.... depa tolak duit makan..patut dapat 90. yang bestnye, masa latihan ri tu, tak dapat makan apa pun.ceh.

oh ye... nak tulis pasal himpun... himpun sangat best.program selama 3 hari yang dianjurkan memang sangat2 membantu dalam menyemai semangat patriotisme..bagi aku lah tapi.... tatau lah bagi org lain... from this program, aku dapat banyak info bout negara... bagi aku, pedulikan dulu ngan segala macam poitik yang ntah apa2. satukan semua penduduk negara ni dulu.... baru nak ujudkan benda baru.

hari first sampai, as usual, antibody aku memang tak kuat...sampai2 je trus demam.. sampai terhyung hayang. pening...ye lah...nk adapt dengan perubahan cuaca... ceh, cakap macam dr malaysia ke london lak cuaca nye.. apa yang penting, apa yang penceramah tu cakap bout himpun, aku tak dengar as aku tak focus apa pun. malam tu, start activiti kumpulan..kenal2kan diri je... malangnya, fasi kami agak moody... but tahniah kepada beliau, kerana sedaya upaya melawan ke moody an nye itu...

so, esok paginye, riadah.... hurm... budak unimap atau lebih tepatnya, budak biosistem datang lewat riadah..ambik ko jd ninja turtle. hahaha...comel. LDK dat day, cerita bout sejarah negara, perlembagaan negara, n hubungan etnik...best lah, because group member suma macam fun2 je. malam u tgk crita hati malaya... aku tak faham... nan org malaysia skang nih ang suka sangat meletakkan salah pada kerajan..bukan mudah nak puaskan ati semua org.. pada masa yang sama,ko nak jugak jaga hati ko dari kecewa... kang kalo malaysia nih jd macam singapore baru tau.. tak diberi kebebasan bersuara. time tu memberontak lg..haiyoo... pelik2 je manusia sekarang nih..hurmm~

third day, nak balik dah...hurmmm, cerita bout perpaduan.. n diteruskan dengan malaysiaku.. diberi setiap group barang2, n then kena buat satu mercu tanda malaysia.... hasilya..menara berkembar...walaupun tak nampak macam menara sangat..sebab bahnnye skit.huhuh..

whatever pun.program nih memang best..thanks to all fasilitators... nice memories with uum and unimap students~~~

:)

show time

haish..maybe sekarang ni my ability to do something in last minutes is not so good.. i need to be well prepared.. hurm... as a result, my first song during the show is worst... with that violin sounds like erk erk erk and a feel like a lil bit flat while singing the chorus.

hurm... the story~

start from sunday (10/01/10)

well i come, and we about to decide what song are we going to play and sing. i was blurr. that was so irritating. memang i'm worst in deciding songs. so after a while, en mi choose one for us... can't help falling in love with you. about 15 minutes later, he decided another song... can't take my eyes of you. after trying and trying.well it works... lagu can't help falling in love with you tu i was like..oh ok..lagu ni. and lagu can't take my eyes of you tu, aku memang rasa macam tinggi, but i try. cuba dulu..n suara aku as usual jadi kecik sebab kawal tak nak bagi pecah..hehehe... tak pe lah..next latihan aku mintak dorang tukar

tuesday(12/01/09)

ok, latihan ni was a lil bit different. because bukan selalu aku pergi mana2 aku mintak tukar key... but dis time memang terpaksa..seb bek lah all the musician ni jenis yang pro... senang je tukar... cakap je key apa... hehehe.bagus2.. so lagu can't help falling in love with you tu, en mi ckp macam aku tak lepas part chorus, so di turunkan 1 key..bukan half macam biasa. from D to C. so bila tukar aku jadi risau tahap karma. rendah kot..memanglah chorus boleh buat, tapi verse part suara aku tenggelam.. tak pe lah... show je kot... n then lagu can't take my eyes of you tu guna key C...verse memang ok.. tapi part chorus tingg gila babi...hahah... penakut punya irsya ngan high note. so di turunkan jadi A.... rendah ke?ok la...memang key aku kot.hahahah.. then, both song jadi ok... pastu en mi suh prepare one more song lagu what's up..

wednesday (13/01/10)

lagu what's up..hahah..ni lagi satu lagu yang macam hampeh bila ditukarkan jadi rendah gila,nak taknak masuk2 lagu trus amik tinggi. hehehehe... ok lah..seb bek lepas. aku rasa lagu ni guna key F...w ell memang aku concern pasal key skang. sebab aku nak tengok paras mana aku.. show merata2 with band, jd untuk memudahkan band, better aku tahu awal2. well aku tak perform kat unimap je k... hurm. then memang kena perform satu lagu je... lagi dua lagu tu perform len... n harus ke 4chain tak join show ari khamis tu n dia suruh aku main tamborine..hampeh!

thursday (14/01/10) first show

first show..lagu what's up. haruslah aku second song. bagi min nyanyi first song. dia nyanyi lagu kau aku versi akustik. and aku men tamborine.. second song, yang aku nyanyi, dia main tamborine..and harus ke aku tak dengar music? aku tak tau cmne nak masuk..haish~ and memang masuk2 lagu first song terpleot gak ah... others ok je lah.. dah nak dekat2 habis lagu tu aku ada tertinggal satu word menyebabkan satu part tu cm kosong.. hahahah.. sengal gila.
harus ke lepas abes perform, en mi kata kena prepare 4 lagu..means ambah lagi 2 lagu.. siot tol. so malam tu pergi latihan. aku dok usha shuhud main beat dangdut. b4 en mi dah cakap suh prepare lagu stand by me. so ble en mi tanya nak buat lagu kopi dangdut ke, i'm kinda excited gak lah..hhaha.. sengal gila. dapat ragging 4chain suh dia buat solo drum.. as a result, dia dok men salah je, so kami balik agak lambat lah ak..hahah. tak pe...it's a process of learning..heheeh

friday (15/01/10)

latihan hari ni memang best..because everyone macam excited main dangdut..tatau la kan..heheh. tapi show ari ni tak lama..that's why i said the band macam pro. suma fast learner..hehehe. best lah laihan hari ni. but still i'm worried with the first song. ceh..

saturday (16/01/10)2nd show

huh... bangun pukul 10... bout 11 a.m, en mi mesej ckp show tukar dr pukul 4 ke pukul 2. harus ke? aku tak siap apa pun.. and bout 1.15 aku nek bas dr wang ulu nak ke kangar, ut pakcik tu tak gerak2 gak. so, en mi suh aku turun somewhere kat dewan warisan so that sumone bley amik aku..ceh.
n, what i worried was then happened. first song, can't help falling in love with you tu suara aku tak dengar..tenggelam. besides aku dok pk violin cmne. disturb..pasni, kalo nk nyanyi je.. jgn nak men violin..aku tak pro lagi kot..hek3... other three songs quite good. and of course lah kopi dangdut paling berjaya..hahah...

well thanks people.. it always be like this.. after every performance, mesti nak say thanks. and salute sangat korang yang boleh tuka key in 1 min. hahah...

so dah bape show ni... aku nak senaraikan sket

patah hati~ minus one 5# kot
leaving on the jet plane~ D
akan ku tunggu~ D jugak kot..tak sempat tanya
what's up~ E
can't help falling in love with you~ C
Stand b me ~ F
Can't take my eyes of you~ A
Kopi dangdut ~ E

so that's it...kenangan..heheh.. thanks people...

4chain~ drummer
Shuhud~ Basist
Naim~ guitarist
Daus ~ Guitarist
Haikal ~ saxaphone
hanif a.k.a botak ~percussion
me~ violin + singing..ceh!

being protected?

maybe the way i behave is just like a kid, so everyone around me is like protecting me so much... protect me from danger and most important thing is from being hurt.

maybe certain people does not feel comfortable with it, but i feel another. i feel so much grateful with that. not only my family who protect me.. i have my friend who use to do so... even my ex do the same thing

does it shows they really love me or it shows that i'm not matured enough to depend on myself? but what-so-ever, i damn fine wth it.. thanks a lot for the protection. your protection shows you care bout me.

and i care bout you guys too.. love ya~

rasa serba salah

ok first, i'm not coming from that band.. yes i do. but i'm a musician with them. no offence ever. and suddenly i have to sing with them. taking the vocalist place... i don't know why but i feel like she a little bit sad about it. then how should i say no?

2nd, i feel like the communication with her is getting worst.. not really, but i found out it's like the first time i met her. it's like not really friendly comunication..or is it just my feeling.

i don't want because of this simple things, i had a fought or misunderstanding with other people.

n please.. i hope... the next sem, there is or are new freshies who can play violin.me alone will not fit it all.